Tuesday, January 10, 2012

The Other Coast

The east coast...most likely, NYC. I never thought I'd say this, but that might be in my future.

I've never been to the east coast. It's been on my travel list for years. But I didn't expect to be thinking about it like this.

This afternoon I got a text from my boyfriend, The Name. Some very unexpected changes came up today at work. Changes that will likely throw his whole life upside down. Changes that might include having to relocate to the east coast. Neither of us know what it means yet. There's so many things that aren't certain - so many details we don't know. Is he moving? If so, where? and when? And what does that mean for us?

I can't even begin to think about it yet. He needs more info first to figure out his part and than we can figure out us. It's just so weird for me to wrap my mind around that there is an us that this effects.

The last time I wrote in this blog, we'd just broken up. It was awful and I was torn up for 2 months. Then he got some info that changed everything he had thought. And after a crazy chain of events*, we had to determine if we could put it behind us, if I could forgive him, if we could move on. We did. And since then we've been stronger than ever.

I'm falling.

And now a wrench just got thrown into our happy relationship that could land him on the other coast. Will he go? Will we try and make this long distance and fly coast to coast to make it work? Would I consider turning my life upside down too?

My mind is spinning and yet still at the same time. I know we can't make any decisions until we have more info.

And so we wait....

My first reaction was that my knees buckled at the thought of losing him. But since then the shock has worn off and I'm realizing that I don't think I'm going to lose him. He turned to me as soon as it happened because it effects us both. And I believe in my heart that we'll get through this...TOGETHER. And that makes me feel more safe and at ease than I've ever been.

*i'll write a post later

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